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Dreams

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 If dreams have meanings then I'm not sure what i'm dealing with lately.  A series of uncontrollable nightmares where I lose control and where I can feel my heartbeat going up.

It started off with the usual losing teeth dream.  Nothing strange.  I get this one about 4 times a year.  This one was one of the worst.  Almost all my teeth are gone, especially the front ones.  Woke up... heart rate probably at about 120 and had to smack my upper and lower teeth together to make sure it wasn't real.

A week later, it was the strange things in my hair dream.  I almost never get this one.  This was unusual for me.  Although it wasn't something gross coming or growing out of my hair, in fact, oddly enough, it was sesame seed, it still gave me goosebumps.  The sesame seeds were coming out of my head, almost like dandruff.

and last night, I had the driving car down the street and car spinning out of control dream.  I was driving down Geary, must had been around 10th ave with my mom.  All of a sudden I noticed that i was swerving, and then the car was going left and right all on it own.  Only, I knew it was a dream, and i kept telling myself that in my dream.  "Its only a dream, it will stop, its only a dream, it will stop".  When it finally did stop, i landed in another dream, where I was still spinning, Vertigo style.  

So what does that mean?  Why am I having these dream?  Stress? Am I losing control in my life?  What is it?   

Adult crushes...

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 Are there such a thing as adult crushes??  Fiona and I were discussing that the other day.... is it still consider as a crush when you are 30 years old??  and how do you get over one?  one where you know it will never work and where the other person doesnt like you back..  Isnt life as a 30 year old confusing enough, how do I have time to have a crush at the same time??  

I remember having a crush when I was in middle school and in high school... but that make sense...  not now... 

Oh well... 

Im so full...

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 today was so hot... and i wore a black button down shirt, thick denim pants and a tie.  it must have been 80 degree outside when i went for my walk... but i walked anyways... since i know that i shouldnt eat a lot cause I was having dim sum at night.  so all day I just ate veggie, prunes, dates and almonds, which to me was prefectly fine.

around 9, went to meet Will for dim sum, so im hella full now. 

MY POOR BABY....


My baby just stepped on a piece of reminant piece of broken bowl that was on my floor.  he kept crying and crying... oh i felt so bad...  but hes all better now...  my heart almost came out of my mouth when i heard him crying... can you imagine if i had a real child??  i literally jumped out of the chair and ran toward him...  i sat down and he climbed on me... i calmed him down by rubbing his chest... he calmed down...  that scared the shit outta me...  

A JOB IN SAN RAMON???


My old boss told me to give him a number for a job to work for him in San Ramon.  But i think that means that I will have to be on the road about 3 hours a day... i dont think its worth it...  i wouldnt have time to do anything... am i right? 

LATE NIGHT CHICKEN WINGS


  Im full... very full.  Just went to eat buffalo wings with Will.... yes... just... We got there at 9.  Dude there is gotta be a reason why food taste so much better when you eat it late...  here are some pics...

 

 

DAMN FOOL THINKS HE CAN MAKE ME JEALOUS...

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Will sent me a picture of the seafood Lo-Mein that he was eating yesterday and i admit sure it looks good, but nothing like the delicious ramen i had just before... so i texted him back and i said... nice try, unfortunately, I am full with delicious ramen right now.. hhhah.. he came back with one word.... CUNT!   hahahhaha... i text him back and said... damn right bitch! yea!

umm.... ramen... i want more of that... shit im kinda hungry...   

IM SO FULL... IM GONNA DIE


I just went to Espetus... the Brazailian Steakhouse where guys come around to crave you meat... all you can eat. after dinner even tho we were so full... we still got dessert... which really isnt a good idea... but it was so good... 

I dont think I can go to sleep now... im so fulll.....heres a pic of the dessert.

 

my mom lost her phone


.... i cant believe she lost her phone...  i understand if you drop your phone and you break it... but how do you lose your phone... 

Hanging out with Andrew....


You know, Ive been hanging out with Andrew lately, going to the game, going to the gym, etc.... its kinda nice...  there are just somethings that only the two of us can understand between the two of us that other people will not.  Like for example, we were riding bikes at the gym yesterday and this guy passed by in front of us.  Hes about 55 and he was hella buff.  He walked by.  I turned to Andrew, Andrew turned to me... and we both smiled at the same time...  Its just things like that makes me happy to hang out with andrew...  

Also, im glad that he has joined the gym and eating better.  We both had salad for dinner last night.